Reflection 5-
I have a secret… I am a procrastinator, and in the past I was quick to give up on complicated matters of business. It has definitely been a pattern in my life. Even in my first years of teaching, I would go home and think, “Is this what I am supposed to be doing or is this where I am supposed to be?” Even during this program, I stopped mid-way because I found myself confused over my journey in life. Analyzing even further, just in Week 2 of this program I questioned my purpose, meaning, and path in a leadership position. My attitude was to give up because I got discouraged. Sometimes I find myself full of doubt. Doubt in myself, doubt in my meaning, but I am also full of big dreams, big dreams and big hopes. And as I said, this is my secret, because I would never reveal what I believe to be my biggest weakness. Leaders do not do that.
You are probably thinking, ‘what is this woman thinking?!’ For many, my journeys have been a waste of time, money, and even hard work. For me, it has been a rollercoaster of learning experiences and lessons that have given me a strong motivation and a solid foundation- two qualities I believe a campus leader must possess to be a success and inspiration to others.
Throughout this year I found a newfound fulfillment in being an educator and a leader. I resumed my position in the program and now with four classes left to go, I feel I have found exactly where I need to be. I have finally realized that no matter how down I get about my skills or success, I am my own worst critic. Ultimately, I have found that I do what I do for my students, and they only make my motivation and foundation stronger and stronger. When they succeed, I am successful, and not to brag, I am extremely successful.
So, although my many years of discouragement, complacency, and self-doubt seemed to be a waste of time to others around me, it has truly revealed to me that I am not a quitter. If I was, I would have left the field years ago. What my rollercoaster ride has given me is the skills and power as a leader to transfer that feeling of having and keeping big dreams and big hopes to my students. I am their teacher. I guide, instruct, encourage, and support and those are matters of business that I will never give up on.
I have a secret… I am a procrastinator, and in the past I was quick to give up on complicated matters of business. It has definitely been a pattern in my life. Even in my first years of teaching, I would go home and think, “Is this what I am supposed to be doing or is this where I am supposed to be?” Even during this program, I stopped mid-way because I found myself confused over my journey in life. Analyzing even further, just in Week 2 of this program I questioned my purpose, meaning, and path in a leadership position. My attitude was to give up because I got discouraged. Sometimes I find myself full of doubt. Doubt in myself, doubt in my meaning, but I am also full of big dreams, big dreams and big hopes. And as I said, this is my secret, because I would never reveal what I believe to be my biggest weakness. Leaders do not do that.
You are probably thinking, ‘what is this woman thinking?!’ For many, my journeys have been a waste of time, money, and even hard work. For me, it has been a rollercoaster of learning experiences and lessons that have given me a strong motivation and a solid foundation- two qualities I believe a campus leader must possess to be a success and inspiration to others.
Throughout this year I found a newfound fulfillment in being an educator and a leader. I resumed my position in the program and now with four classes left to go, I feel I have found exactly where I need to be. I have finally realized that no matter how down I get about my skills or success, I am my own worst critic. Ultimately, I have found that I do what I do for my students, and they only make my motivation and foundation stronger and stronger. When they succeed, I am successful, and not to brag, I am extremely successful.
So, although my many years of discouragement, complacency, and self-doubt seemed to be a waste of time to others around me, it has truly revealed to me that I am not a quitter. If I was, I would have left the field years ago. What my rollercoaster ride has given me is the skills and power as a leader to transfer that feeling of having and keeping big dreams and big hopes to my students. I am their teacher. I guide, instruct, encourage, and support and those are matters of business that I will never give up on.
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